I don't want to.....

I don't wanna sit
I don't wanna stand

I don't wanna walk
I don't wanna stop

I don't wanna laugh
I don't wanna cry

I don't wanna live
but I don't wanna die..


May be this doesn't make much sense but I just wanted to write this. As this is what I am actually feeling. Has it ever happened to you? Have you felt moments when you do not want to do anything but cannot sit idle? You want to talk your heart out but do not feel like using these things called 'words'....you want to be a part of the hustle and bustle in a crowd but are reluctant to compromise your space. There are thousands of such contradictory things running on my mind. But I think this much is enough.

Perhaps this is beacuse I am away from home for the first time. Sitting approximately 1000kms from home (in Ahmedabad), may be this is how one feels. I am missing home but do not really want to return. I am certain this feeling would go as things settle and then I shall share with you the beauty of the Gujju land. (I hope I am able to steal some more moments like these when I can blog....missing my PC without any contradictions)

4 comments:

The Acid Tongue said...

i cant say i know how it feels like bein in such a situation, but somehow, I kinda identify with the contradictory emotional fallback. I always wonder why they call it a fallback.

But yea.. there are times when you wanna be the part of everything your friends do, but also wanna sit alone staring at the words you wrote a minute earlier.

Song of the day:
Bob Marley - Don't Worry

Happy ho ja ;)

Aayush Bhatnagar said...

yep...i can relate to this ! its a weird n funny feeling!

akanksha said...

hey...bumped here from neo's blog...and i m glad i did!
I can relate to each n every word posted by u here to an extent as if i've written it myself...contradictory beliefs is wt i am also struggling with dese days...and strangely i find it quite normal now...

Richa said...

hmm...feel jst d same at present...n in such situations, i tend 2 hv wt i call a blank thot...wth so many thots 2gethr...i end up thinkin blank...a vry natural account...

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...